Today went as well as it possibly could have, I think. Got some work done in the morning. Then put on a skirt, did my hair, put on makeup, and drove to Chester County for traffic court. Yes, I was going for sex appeal.

And it worked. I told the officer- 'I don't remember what happened- I could have hit someone, a deer could have hit me, someone could have tried to merge and hit me. I think you should err on the side of innocence.' He said, 'I think you hit a tractor trailer [probably] but since you were the only car involved and no one else has come forward, I'm going to drop it.' so yay! No fine, no points!

I then had plenty of time to make it back to my 4:00 appointment in Charlotte with Dr. Taylor. She told me I looked pretty. (I usually go in there on my work at home days, in exercise pants and T-shirts). I asked her if there was something else we could be doing, besides the cycle of antibiotics and opportunistic infections. She talked about the allergy shots, treating the underlying cause. Also said that moving might cause me to have more infections for a while- a year- while my immunity adjusts to the infections in the area. I'm going, 'I thought moving would make it better!' then she told me, 'when I moved, I was sick for a year. My office manger thought she'd gotten a sick doctor!'

I also told her, 'I'm going to see my GYN in Columbia tomorrow about my IC, cause she's been handling that.' her only reaction was to tell me to drive safely when I left. When she was examining me, I felt a little scared and had to tell myself, it's okay, it's okay. But I was like that with Dr. Birdsong too.

Dr. Taylor gave me steroids, which I find preferable right now to more antibiotics. But she did give me an antibiotic prescription, plus a Diflucan prescription, to take later if I need. So, good communication, barriers down some more, and good outcome.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with Beverly. It's at 9:30 meaning I have to leave here at 8:30 at the latest. Not thinking of the possible scary treatments. Just that it'll be nice to see Beverly, and to get my IC taken care of. Then at 3 I see Shannon, 5:30 is Media Club. Friday I'm having lunch with a few friends. Saturday is Columbia's big St. Patrick's Day Festival. Sunday the pagan group I used to go to is celebrating the spring equinox. So, it'll be an awesome, eventful weekend. And things are going well.

But, as Shannon says, if we could only turn your brain off...I've been experiencing phantom smells- garlic bread, air freshener, vomit. Last time I had phantom smells, I had events- I wasn't sure if they were partial seizures or really bad dissociation. I don't think I've had those. I have a cut I don't remember getting- not entirely unusual. But I made a comment online; I don't remember doing it, and I don't remember watching the TV show I commented on either. That is odd. My seizures started with me doing things and right after I didn't remember.

I guess I should go see Dr. Taylor about this. I'm worried that she'll try to send me to a specialist, or that she'll try to take my license. I can look up the North Carolina laws...but I don't want to have a full blown seizure. This also means telling her my story. blah. So many thoughts...